Graceful Charity : This Is Why Grace Has Allowed Me To Flourish Unbounded

Introduction :

Today we celebrate a special holiday that is dear to everyone’s heart. Because today is Thanksgiving, and everyone with a little bit of searching can find something to be thankful for. This is my story.


Thankfulness :

There’s really a lot to be thankful for in life, but sometimes life can construe what we should be thankful for. We may feel life happening too fast to realize what we should really be thankful for. This includes the small and the big stuff. I’m a strong believer in appreciating the small so you can mindfully enjoy life’s pleasant moments during every part of the day.

If you had to ask me what I was most thankful for in my entire life for this year, then I would struggle to find an answer for the reason stated above. However, there was a moment today when I realized what my heart truly was most thankful for this year. It is beyond any doubt, grace. Grace is really hard to define. When I asked my sister what God’s grace is and what it meant to her I realized that our definitions didn’t match up. There is nothing wrong with that but it made me realize what God’s grace meant to me even more. God’s grace is the same for everyone but how we interpret it and experience His grace is up to us.


Grace To Me :

To me, grace was my Father’s desire to be with me and to call me His child as I call out to him as my Father with His truest identity residing in me. God’s grace to me was the constant portrayal of love towards me which overpowered any and all blasphemy coming from my sinful spirit. This, to me, is the saving grace that I needed because for a while I believed I was undeserving of His love.

What led me to believe this way was my constant testing of God’s identity and my ignorant blasphemy of Him. To me, there is no greater sin than blasphemy because blasphemy is not of this earth and it is a direct attack on God coming from our spirit of which our God has blessed us with. It is a teenage rebellious phase. I knew how powerful God’s love was to overcome my sin, but coming to terms with it was difficult.

God’s grace saved me because even though I made my mistakes, He saw me not for my actions but for my love and my potential to spread His love. I cannot express how thankful I am. It is this undeserving power and strength that allows me to walk in confidence each day. I walk in confidence through Christ because of my faith that if I fall, God’s grace will catch me before I fall and hit the pits of the abyss. Knowing this allows me to live my life to the maximum awareness of the little things in life.


Power of Grace :

God doesn’t leave His children forgotten because we are His most loved. It was God’s grace that put Scott in my life to save me from suicide. It was God’s grace that put Scott in my life while I was eating Chicken and Kale in the Panda Express dining area at the University of Minnesota – Twin CIties. God’s graceful charity allowed me to see how much love there was that was within my reach. I was impoverished and filled with anger and hate but it was God’s grace that eased me.

Above all else, it was God’s grace that put Redre Nelach in my life as a friend. Nelach was like no one else and she was embodied with the full armor of God. She was brilliantly lit up with His spirit and ran steadfast into the darkness of souls. Perhaps it was this trait that I found most admirable. I once told my group leader, “The longer you stare into the stars of the night, the more stars you will see.” Very few people understand this and even a smaller percentage live by this. Nelach was one who stared into the darkness of all souls to see the Lod’s light.


Champion of Grace :

Nelach was a champion of God’s grace and expressed wholeheartedly it. I fell in love with this. When I met her, I had just come back from the Twin Cities and I lost all my friends and never bothered to make new ones. I never would have thought that God’s grace would put her in my life, yet He did. For that, I am extremely thankful. Nelach made me smile on days when even lifting my eyes was hard. A radiant of energy spread from her chest as if it was about to burst.

I learned a great deal from her. Nelach has reminded me what life was and what God could provide. When I didn’t believe in myself, she believed in me. When I didn’t see good in myself, she saw the good in me! What is God’s grace but not that! Nelach must never know what she means to me because she has served God’s Will in my life beyond our Fathers expectation. For that, I am thankful. During my weakest moments, she provided graceful charity to a soul yearning.

She became the personification of Jesus Christ’s Living Hope on earth. I saw in her, what I hadn’t seen in anyone on earth. When all else failed, it was her that taught me during my hardest battles :

“You know how in winter everything seems so dead? Although everything looks dead, the trees’ roots are growing deeper. They are becoming stronger.”


Living with Grace :

God’s grace has saved me from the depths of hell and has raised me to become a champion for the weak like Nelach. If I can become half the man as Nelach was then I would be much satisfied. This is what I’m most thankful for this year. Realizing the significance of grace and how it has filled me with holy energy as it did with Nelach is what I’m most thankful for. Because of Redre Nelach, I am able to live every day to the fullest. I am willing to ride steadfast into the darkest of nights to lend a helping hand. God bless her and God bless the seeds she nourishes. I am her seed and for that, I am most thankful for.

Remove Trap : Using God-given Gifts To Overcome Darkness

Introduction :

I want to challenge you to view what I’m about to share with you with an open heart. I want to try an exercise where you envision yourself as an engineer. Picture yourself as an engineer. If you don’t know what an engineer is then I can describe what it means to be an engineer to me. Understanding how an engineer works to solve problems can help us in our daily lives to live a life where our problems can easily be solved.


Practicality :

Throughout elementary school, I was taught the main subjects: Math, Science, Social Studies, English, Art, and Gym. I’m sure that unless you go to a special school then you may have encountered a curriculum like mine. The problem with the curriculum is that it doesn’t really have any practical use beyond the classroom. You could argue that Gym could teach you to be physical. Art could teach you to be creative. English could teach you to communicate. Social Studies could teach you to visualize. Science could teach you discovery. Math could teach you patterns.

The current education system was developed and structured to answer the demands for manufacturing jobs and the education system’s purpose really hasn’t changed much then. All these skills are necessary for life, but what are skills unless you have a purpose for them? This is what I mean when I say that it isn’t a curriculum practical for real life. Unless you have the inherent skill to solve a creative problem with creativity, then being creative is “practically” useless in the sense of solving creative problems.

You are not introduced to what engineering is until you get a formal education beyond primary school. An engineer is not limited to a specific field like electrical or mechanical. In fact, engineers can range from all sorts of fields: biomedical, chemistry, agriculture, water, civil, and many others. The specific knowledge relating to each field of engineering is independent of each other and it is not what makes an engineer an engineer.


An Engineer :

To me, an engineer is a professional who uses known processes and procedures to develop a product or solution that solves an applicable problem. They give solutions to real-world problems. Engineer is less concerning of the knowledge of their domain but rather the way of thinking when it comes to tackling problems. Solution-oriented thinking with knowledge of the limitations imposed.


Holy Body :

The reason why I bring this topic up isn’t to bore you but to show you what the kingdom of heaven truly is. The kingdom of heaven is one body through Christ. Each cell in the body of Christ is interconnected to Him, our savior, and to other fellow cells or Christians. Each cell, as you probably have guessed, is truly an engineer. The engineer can be of various fields depending on the skills as you can see with the various different types of earthly engineers. Each cell will have the unique strength they possess.

Not everyone is supposed to be one specific type of engineer. What makes the body of Christ the strongest is the diversity in our engineers. What is most important about the body of Christ is not the individual’s cell’s specific skills but rather the fact that each cell in the body of Christ is operating like an engineer with the same processes and procedures set in place by our Father. If the body of Christ can do this in unison, then we will be stronger together. As long as we find our specific engineer domain and work diligently using the processes and procedures set forth by our Father then we will surely find success.


The Blueprint :

Our processes and procedures on how to structure our problem-solving skills relating to navigating life have been set forth by Jesus Christ alone. There are two fundamental ones. Love your God. Love your neighbor. We maximize our innate abilities when we follow those processes and procedures. Engineers are the problem solvers and the problems are plenty of the world. Sin, nonbelievers, enemies, and many more.


“This is my body, which is given for you. Do this in remembrance of me.” 

Luke 22:19

Traps of the Earth :

We live in a society filled with traps tormenting us to do wrong. To think the wrong way! To follow false idols and their processes and procedures even though we know are wrong but still fall prey to. Money, sexuality (men and women), greed, gluttony, and sadly many more. The most dangerous trap is our mind and humanly wisdom. When we proclaim our wisdom as just and decree our own processes and procedures over the Father’s, then that is period when we are trapped the most!

There is none but one way to remove the trap surrounding us! It is Jesus Christ and his Commandments for us! It is the sacred covenant He has made so we are allowed to love abundantly without being held back. Will you accept the covenant as to remove the traps that are waiting for you? When you accept his covenant then no trap will be set off or harm you when you traverse them.

Have you not heard that if you get slapped in the cheek, then you should turn the other one too? We fight the problems of the world not through our own processes and procedures, but with the first two fundamental commandments! This is truly beginning of healing for the wounded hearts who have been plagued by the world.


Untapped Potential :

Know that every enemy you deem an enemy is little to you but to our God, the enemy is His righteous child. The enemy is just lost and not found. It is our duty as radical Christians to engineer a world that fulfills his Will on earth as it is in Heaven through the framework in which Christ has provided for us to overcome darkness. When you want to defeat an enemy who sets traps around you, you best put the most powerful and divine trap within you. This way of living life is what separates Radical Christians because the Lord knows that it is very difficult to live with his most holy trap in you. However, our Father also knows it’s much easier to when we have Jesus Christ as our anchor.


The cells of the body of Christ are indeed God’s helper and we are on this planet to do far more than being scientists trying to do nothing but create problems from problems. We get nowhere if we do that. We are sent to fix the darkness that plagues this world and to bring light to all so all can see by the Word and our righteous battle through Jesus Christ.

Change Of Heart

A poem written for my Mother and Father to be printed on a silk scroll




It’s been said that you have two parents.

The Father in Heaven,

and the mother and father on Earth.

I was born into a world without either,

lost and angry

Entrapped in my mind.


But my Father in Heaven did not dismiss me,

For He had made provisions

To bring me to light from the grips of darkness.

Open my eyes.


Gifts from God.


A heart, like a tree, does not come to be,

It is nurtured and nursed through patient love.

My body had no heart

And I had no love.


My mind may be mine,

But look,

My Heart is yours.

For you received in you a heart of life

And from that you have multiplied it by ten.

And then some.


One guardian angel protecting from Heaven.

Nine fighters fighting on Earth.

There is nothing greater to fix than Life itself,

For we were shattered and now we are glued.

No amount of money and no amount of riches can compare.

Can you not see the beauty?


I know I cannot connect with people,

It truly is sad.


Perhaps with your gifts

I can try.


And then again tomorrow.

A little bit at a time.


Because this Heart was not to be,

But It is,

By virtue of

The Gifts from God.


I will always love you Mom and Dad.

For I have learn to take your Gifts

And make them mine.

So that I may give to those

Whose heart was not to be,

But Will Be Tomorrow!